Wednesday, April 8, 2009

This is hard...

I cannot stand not running. I feel overwhelmed, tired. Cross. Short. Fat. Chubby. Lame. Not like me.

I wish this I T band would heal. I don't think I will be running the full marathon on the 3rd of May. I am experiencing pain when running. It is horrible.

On Sunday, I ran for 3 km, and I had to walk back. I watched everybody in front of me running fluidly, and not having any pain. It was truthfully very upsetting. I came back to the store and bawled my eyes out for quite some time. That goes to show you how very difficult this time has been.

I have resorted to eating to keep me feeling OK. I feel anxious, and worked up. Angry. I am yelling more. Not good.

I need to eat right and exercise. What do I do?

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