stuffed

Well, nothing fits. I haven't been on the scale in weeks. 

I started some physio therapy yesterday, and I left there with both of my hips in alignment, both of my legs the same length. I have daily stretching to do. I go back in one week. I also have ice packs to use. 

I asked that *question* when can I run again? And of course he said give me two weeks. Two weeks. I can do two more weeks. If it is a matter of not running or running. I chose running. So I do whatever it takes to get back! 

It looks like I will be starting back at the beginning. The very beginning of running. When the running begins, getting back on the scale to see the damage and my healthy life begins again.

Lately I have felt a lot of anxiety, stress and sadness.

Hot Yoga - Starting Over

I went to my first hot yoga class this morning. 90 minutes in a 41 degree room. 26 poses. So much sweat from my body I couldn't believe I could sweat that much. It was very challenging and I now want to go daily. 

Tomorrow I am back on track with my healthy eating for a week. See if I can take off the extra 5 pounds, and get back down to 150 pounds. I am so off track. I am such an emotional eater. 

I have to stop that eating! It is not healthy. So, I am going to do hot yoga every day (evening if I can) and then go to bed without eating late at night.

Great Quote

Start by doing what's necessary;
then do what's possible;
and suddenly you are doing the impossible. --St. Francis of Assisi 

This is hard...

I cannot stand not running. I feel overwhelmed, tired. Cross. Short. Fat. Chubby. Lame. Not like me.

I wish this I T band would heal. I don't think I will be running the full marathon on the 3rd of May. I am experiencing pain when running. It is horrible.

On Sunday, I ran for 3 km, and I had to walk back. I watched everybody in front of me running fluidly, and not having any pain. It was truthfully very upsetting. I came back to the store and bawled my eyes out for quite some time. That goes to show you how very difficult this time has been.

I have resorted to eating to keep me feeling OK. I feel anxious, and worked up. Angry. I am yelling more. Not good.

I need to eat right and exercise. What do I do?

Not my time I guess.

Well, funny my blog title is See Cathy Run, when today I couldn't even run 3 km without pain. I think I will not be running the marathon this go. I am going to stick to walking until I feel I can run again.

As for weight, I am back at 150 and feeling very frustrated. In fact, after my run today I walked into the RR and just bawled my eyes out. I have worked so hard, I am so close to my goal. SO frustrating, sad. Makes me mad.

So, I won't even record my time etc. for today. I will just try to enjoy the beautiful day. And think about my running friends that are out running right now. 

As for the 'Biggest Loser' the date has been extended to the 22nd of May. I need to win this to atleast feel I have done something good! 

Anyways, time for a shower.

Oh hold

My knee is hurting today still. So, I have booked in for an ART session tomorrow, and then a sports physio on Monday (and I am on the cancellation list)

I have booked in my yearly physical in May, and I have booked my daughters shots. 

I am going to take the week off of exercise, which I am not happy about. But, I will be happier to RUN the marathon in about a month. So...I will just take it easy.

I have taken the advice of marathoners. They rule so, I will listen. Anything to get to May 3rd in one piece! I do not want to WALK the marathon. I want to run and feel great!

Sunday Long Run

Today, my weight was OF COURSE up to 148.6 pounds. Uggh.

I had my 'shorter LSD' run today. And it was just awful. 

23.47 km

2:54 minutes running (THAT IS SOOOOO LONG and stupid and lots of walking too)

And I took Advil (thanks Wil!) about 6 ish km into the run. The first 5 km AWESOME! Then bam. IT troubles. Right side. YUCK!

Avg pace: 7:27 km (slow slow slow)

Best pace: 5:08

1594 calories burned

One of the most difficult and painful runs every. I just want to be ready for the marathon. I may skip this weeks runs and just do Jazzercise and weights this week until Sunday. 29 km.

Very bad run. Made me think what next!? I cannot NOT handle not running. I am addicted to running. 

So, that is my story.

This week I am back to eating correct portions, and calorie counting. And adding in weights!

I borrowed a foam roller,