Friday Night

Well, it is Friday already! This week was slow, yet fast.

I am feeling my sides, and muscles in places I didn't think I had muscles. I did my second day of the BIU- SIS DVD. Oh wow. I feel myself getting stronger. That feels GOOD! That DVD was 1 hour.

Eating was good too. Last night we went to White Spot. I ordered the garden burger, easy on the ranch. And sweet potato fries. I had half of the burger, and about 10 fries in the dip (very light) and I was stuffed. I packed it up, and Cliff had my leftovers for lunch today.

I have been taking my vitamins, drinking all of my water. I can tell my stomach is shrinking. I like it!

Tonight, I met some of my old group that is now in the 5K group. We ran together and it was nice. Perfect night for a run!

5.48K

35:26

478 calories burned

(Big calorie burn day today, double that I would think)

Anyways. That is my day.

#500in2010 I walked 2K today (FINALLY no sickies!!) and then my 5.48K + 7.48K or 5 miles.

A good day!

Hump Day - Week Three, Day Three & a Run

Today was a good day, and a bad day. Sick child in the house, a lot of puke. But manageable. My day was so much better than yesterday. I am tired, yes. But happier for sure.

It had to be my decision with regards to running. No pressure. Max 15k. And suddenly all feels right in my world again. I have no rush to run a half or try for the full. I KNOW I can do it.

So, today I did BIU, for 48 minutes (between puke clean up--really!) and laundry. Lots of laundry.

And, a good run tonight as well, and it was nice to run with my friend Louise. It is nice to have friends with fitness goals I must say! It is nice to run and chat about our lives. The runs go a lot quicker that is for sure!

7.13K run

47:51

avg 6:43

best 4:36

Calories burned: 637

#500in2010 - 4.5 miles today

Tomorrow I am doing a brand new DVD called BURN IT UP. And I will do that to the end of the six weeks! I hope it goes well tomorrow!

Chilly Chase 2010 - 5K race this morning

Here is me nearing the finishing chute. Not very attractive, and I felt very winded. But hey, I did it. I can see from these images where I have to take off the weight. I don't like how I look at ALL. However, I know I am working on this.

Thank you Nikki for taking my photos, and sharing them with me!

Pre race of course. Note, the top image, I stripped off the layer, and my hat. I got very warm quickly!

Well, I did it! So did a lot of my friends, and first time race runners! It is so exciting to watch first time racers finish a race! For many of our clinic participants in the LTR, this was their very first experience! I totally remember that very first time and how exciting is was!

This is my very first race this year of course, and my last race was actually the Chilly Chase 2009, when I ran the 15k. I find it amazing at how fast life can change in a year! Last year, in the shape of my life, this year coming off an injury, and then my stupid fall in the garage yesterday.

However, I am pleased that I managed to complete the 5k pain FREE!! This is a miracle in itself. It felt great to run! Fun to hang out with my friends. Nice to have Cliff and Courtney there to cheer me on!

Chilly Chase 2010 - 5k (not official, but from my trusty Garmin)

5.19k ( bit over)

30:33

avg 5:57

max 3:33

Calories 477

Thank you to Nikki and Susan for the wonderful LTR clinic! You both are the best!

Cathy xo

P.S. Christina! I am so sorry we never met up!!! I would have loved to have said hello!! How did you do?

Edited to add:

Placed 33/101 runners

Placed 9 in the 30-39 category!

27:40.8 (chipped time!)

#500in2010 I did 8.19k this week or, about 5 miles. So yuck from last week, but I needed to rest! It was the right choice.

Friday - Day Five

Well, it is Friday! I have survived five days so far. Feeling really good, and confident!

Drank all of my water, ate really well. Stayed within my calorie range.

Did my 47 minute RIU DVD this morning with two of my kids. Tonight, I ran. Finally back at 10/1's! Mentally I am BACK! Feel like a runner again, even though my body doesn't look very much like one LOL.

Run:

5:05k

37:31

432 calories burned

Awesome run in the rain! Next week is our goal race already! Woo!

My fingers are so cold, I have to go have a shower to warm up!

Oh, #500in2010 I did 2k today walk, + my 5:05K run. So, 7.05K

Happy Friday!

Whoa, I suck. Bad.

This photo above, is what is going to change me. Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.

I hate the way I look. I see a fat face, fat arms, fat body.

I see a woman who is not happy with herself.

Well, let me begin with, I have failed. I am a failure. I cannot stick to a program. I have put on LOTS of weight. I have made many mistakes and I actually do not like how I look or feel. I have gone from a size 5/6 to a size 12/14. Yes. I have gone from 150 pounds to over 180 pounds. Since my last long training run back on April 4th, 2009.

I ALMOST ran a marathon. I ran 32 kms, and finished hill training. I was at my peak! I was so close...and still an important goal has not been completed. I was under 1 month away from my goal.

This year has been so good, and so bad. That is how I sum up my year. Professionally all is going wonderful, personally. Not so much. Something had to give and that was me. I dropped my healthy eating habits. And brought back the old ones. Very easily in fact. This post is hard to write, but it is necessary in order for me to move ahead.

I will keep this post short. I am still not eating right, I am not exercising...but I am going to try to run again.

I still have hip pain, but now I am not sure if it is 'getting older' pain or 'out of shape' pain. All I know is that I cannot keep on this path. I don't like myself very much right now.

I am going to join the "Learn to Run" clinic and start from the bottom. And with hopes of getting back to the top again.

I will be blogging my way through the mess I have got myself into. I will also get myself out of this mess, I call my body. My mind.

This October on the Thanksgiving weekend, I WAS SUPPOSED to be running a second marathon. I just stuffed my face with goodies and felt sorry for myself. Wishing I could be there. Well, next year...I will be there. Maybe not the marathon but hopefully a half marathon! I am going to work this body like I never have before. I am angry with my self. I have let myself down. Yuck.

Not so pretty. I feel fat and ugly. That is the tape that has been playing through my head very often. So, I have to make changes. Time to stop this self hatred. And start loving myself again. Practice what I preach. What I encourage other women to do.

There is no quick fix, there is no magic pill. I just know it takes hard work and dedication. I need to start, before I end up where I was last time. I have to stop myself. I need to get my control back over my body! I am the one stuffing myself, stuffing emotions. Not sleeping right. Sleeping on the couch most nights. This too will change!

So, there you go. There I go. I will check back soon.

The running clinic starts November 13th. A Friday even! Perfect.

Day 3 - July 29

Well, after such a good physio appointment, I had to celebrate and go for another walk run. Cliff joined me tonight. It was so hot, but it felt so GOOD! We did 30 mins of 1 min walk/1 min run and then walked and talked. I would have liked to have walked more briskly, but that is OK. We got out there, and we were able to chat a bit. Thanks MIL for coming over tonight. xo

I have been eating well. My energy level (even with a cold) has been way higher when eating well. And eating the right things. I find I am not having that afternoon slump anymore. And I have increased my water back to where I used to love! So, I am going pee a whole lot more, but today it was not as bad as the first day. 

WORKOUT 

1:06 

Best run pace 4:50 km

Average walk pace 9:20 km

Distance: 7:17 km 

Calories burned 464 +

I have decided to make my weigh ins on Saturday morning...that way I will stay on the 80/20 rule a little bit better over the weekend. Sunday night we will have our splurge night.  I have momentum going and I don't want to lose this feeling again! I forgot how good I feel. I remember this always...nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. I believe this to be true. I know I am not near down where I was when I was hardcore training, but I just feel less bloated. I am enjoying all of the WONDERFUL fruits of the season. Like plums, nectarines and blues. 

I did my stretches tonight, and my crunches and some push ups (arms are really sore!!) I will ease back up to 50! 

My first weigh in will be this Saturday, a couple of days early, but that is OK! 

Finally a GREAT Physio appointment!

I just got back from my physio appointment! He is happy! I am happy. I have booked for next Thursday, but if no pain! Cancel! That is the best news ever! 

I am to keep on running...starting slowly like I have been, but add in some 2/1 with my 1/1's and gradually build back up to my 10/1's. Whoo HOOOOO!

The best part of the appointment, being able to rest in the dark air conditioned treatment room for about 20 minutes. LOVE that. 

I am back at the bottom, but I know I will get back to the top shape I was in, and even better. I have learned so much along this journey so far.

*fingers crossed* that the hip pain goes away, and my hip stays in place, if it goes out (I can tell!) I am to call right away and he will fit me in! Got to love him!